Can best friends be replaced? I know it’s a plastic question in our world full of cosmetic things, where most people make friends for quick gains. But I still believe best friends are found out of selflessness rather than the selfishness inherent in every living person. I lost mine in a tragic accident 4 months ago, and there’s rarely been a day yet that I haven’t thought of him. We were not geographically close for almost a year at the time of his death; in fact we were probably the farthest distance possible on our planet, me in New Delhi & he in Jacksonville, Florida. I remember I was in denial to myself for the first week I heard this tragic news. But only a handful of people know that I wasn’t able to go to his funeral because I was tense all night before that and had a terrible migraine probably because of sleep deprivation + tension. I have never felt so helpless and angry at myself before.
And now here I am, selfishly seeking as if it were a broken coffee mug; a replacement for something that’s irreplaceable. And even though I’m writing this with a huge load of self-guilt, the fundamental fact remains that life moves on.
None of the close friends of mine are physically close to me. They’re either thousands of miles away and even on different continent. And I don’t know having a best friend is like being in love I guess… You don’t pick your best friend just like you don’t pick who you are going to love. You just know it! I’m desperate to experience such a feeling; either it’s a new best friend or the love of my life.